Yeah...sometimes you feel like you have to shout or else you'll explode.

I didn't shouted so i broke my hand by punching a wardrobe.
It won.

Yeah, I know no one gives a fuck about me on DA, but at least I can piss off people by writing my sorrowness (is it correct?)

This girl left me.
girls leaves boyfriends everyday, I know...but...i've never told her how much i loved and still love her.
I never used to belive in love, too much pain and sorrow, but...for once, i started to feel my heart's beat again.

it's her fault.

she captured myself, my ego.
she slowly and deadly become half of my life and sky.
people who knows me also knows how much skies means to me.

I can't stand the idea of her loving another guy. smooching with him, making love to him.

I'm not virgin...but, in someways, it was like i suddenldy went back to my virginity.

I lost it long time ago, in a wrong way, with the wrong person.

Two days ago she told me "I like this other guy" the world crushed on me.
I was used to be dumped...but...this times it hurts a lot.

I've experienced real pain when I realised it was all over.

The most incredible thing was that we met on internet and I never belived in lovestories via net. we never met in real life...but I was planning to drive to her city, 300 Km far away from my place.
though we never met...I felt like I had always lived next to her.
In my dreams we walked hand in hand, we kissed, we made love.
In my dreams.
I don't know...maybe it has been the best thing to do...at least she looks happy to me...but still...I love her.
In the most deep, selfkilling way...I love her...and always will.